Hope is the thing with feathers....

Posted by Heather on April 17th, 2008 at 9:31pm
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I just finished Candice's book, and I truly enjoyed hearing such positive things about marriage, beyond "Wait patiently" and "Live your best while you're single." I'm in my second year of teaching high school English, living on my own four hours away from anything and anyone familiar. I'm LOVING it! It's fun to be on my own and learn how to deal with finances, food, and people--boy, have I learned a lot about people.

However, I live in a very rural area (less than 800 people in my town) and this Spring I've really begun to tire of the constant work (new teachers have LOTS of work) and lack of companionship. Don't get me wrong. I've found an excellent country church with a group of ladies (all older) that have been open and spiritually deep. But, I look around and see how much I'm focused on ME, and I really want a change. I have had such a desire, during college and many times since, to be everything for someone else. To care for them and love them. A husband. And kids. I want to have a large family--I'm thinking seven rough and tumble boys in a big, two-story house, like the one I grew up in. I pray that this is what God has for me--a husband and children--but it seems rather far away! This is enhanced by the fact that I live in the middle of nowhere and I've seen little in the prospective men around here.

My group of ladies which I attend Sunday School with could be my "network," but here's what scares me--I don't want to be stuck in this area of the state for the rest of my life. I'd really like to get back home, or at least closer to home!

I'm encouraged, through Get Married and WPB, to pray more and more specifically about this situation in my life. I've always prayed for my future husband and asked God to prepare us for each other, but now I need to pray that God would help me to live in expectance of marriage.