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Posted by Jennifer on February 19th, 2008 at 7:51pm
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April 24, 2007

Dear Jennifer,

I have the most amazing husband for you one day. He is everything on your list and more. But until the right time, don’t give you heart away. Don’t date just because you can, don’t give it to people who don’t want it – I don’t want you to hurt anymore than you have to. Between now and the time you get married, I have so much for you to do! People to reach, things to do…..and I still need to prepare both you and him. Neither of you are ready yet. You have to trust me that I will give you the absolute best. Other guys will come into your life that you will think is “it” and they won’t be. But it’s ok because the guy I’ve got for you is even better than that, better than you can imagine. And one day, he will think the world of you and think you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to him. Don’t settle for less, and guard your heart.

As you wait, don’t focus on other guys, waiting, wishing, etc. Focus on Me. Focus on glorifying me and doing everything for Me. If you lean on me, I will support you and hold you up as you struggle. I will take you places you never dreamed of going, and people you never thought you’d meet. I will bring great people in and out of your life at the right times, and I’m sorry it hurts you, but it’s part of my plan. And as the transitions of life happen, I know it is hard, but trust me, and step out of the boat. I won’t let you sink. You’ve got to get out of your comfort zone sometimes. Sometimes other people will be there with you, experiencing it too, but other times you will be the only one. But I’m still here. I am protecting you from the wrong guys, broken hearts, wasted time, and wasted energy. Don’t search for him – I will bring him to you. Don’t try to plan it all out – a huge decision like that will never go according to your plan because mine is so much better.

Here’s how you can know my plan is so much better and great for you: I made the earth. I made the stars, even the big ones you like to look at. I paint the sunsets and streak the clouds across the sky in magnificent pieces of art work. I made those pretty pink flowers you like, and the ocean with the peaceful water lapping at your feet as your feet sink into the sand. I gave you your family and friends, gave you all the jobs you’ve had and will have, and I’ve give you amazing talents. Use them all to glorify me. I brought your parents together under such a short time frame, but they were made for each other because they are still together. I brought you people in your life to bring you up through your rough middle school years, and I gave you strength to keep going on days you wanted to die. I gave you friends who you have millions of memories with, and even the difficult people in your life you try to forget. I made them and love them all. I have every day of your life written out. You are just living it. I know what choices you will make, I know what your kids will look like. I know what your grandkids will look like! I know when you will die, when you will retire, when you will have your first kiss. Don’t let the world distract you from my greatness. Don’t overlook it, don’t take it for granted.

You have to trust me. I know every struggle you’re dealing with, and I’ve heard every question you’ve asked. I’ve seen every tear you cry, Kleenex you use, your screams of frustration. I read every bit you write in the tons of places you distribute them on the computer, internet, notebooks, and random scraps of paper. I WILL pull you out of your comfort zone, but I know you so well that I know your limits. I know when you can’t handle anymore. But right now you are growing and stretching. You’ve got to keep swimming. I am right here. I know you want a break, I know you want to hear my voice loud and clear and feel my presence in a deep way – I will let you when the time is right. For now, I’ve got so much to teach you and give you. I know you’re struggling with prayer and faith and the desires of your heart, knowing if it’s my will or not – I will reveal things to you at my time. Remember all those before you who had to wait, but it’s worth it! Instant gratification and answers are usually not what is best for you!

I want all of you. All of your heart – I want the part of your heart that you keep giving away. I want all of your praise and worship. If you put as much time into me as you did to others, our relationship would be so much stronger. You sit with your friends for hours and talk, but you only talk to me about once a week. I know I’m difficult to talk with sometimes because you can’t audibly hear me, but believe me, I will speak. I know how to speak better than anybody. You know how much you miss people when you don’t see them or talk to them for a long time? You know how you cry? Well I feel the same way when you don’t spend time with me. I watch you every day, hoping for just a little time with you, and when I ask, you say, “Sorry, I’ve got to hang out with my friends tonight.” or “Sorry, I’ve got to play around on the computer for a while.” I am a jealous God, just as you are a jealous girl, but I have the right to be! I want all of your trust and faith. Don’t trust in people so much. Don’t put so much of yourself into others because they sin. They are human, they fail, they disappoint you – they are not me. As great as you think some people are, they are merely a speck of dirt on the ground compared to me. I am the only one who can fill you up or show you what else you can to do lift your spirit. I am the only one who can give you pure joy, peace, and love. It all comes from me, not from other people or other things. Sure, reading books, watching movies, talking with friends, and eating chocolate can all make you very happy. But not for long. Not a true joy that I can give you. Stop trying to fill that hole with other things besides me.

You can look forward to this – one day, you will be in heaven. You will get to be with me tangibly all the time. You will also get to be with lots of the best people I’ve ever made. I look forward to having you here. But until then, you’ve got people to reach out to on earth. So don’t waste the time I’ve given you by just sitting back and going along with life. Do great things for me. But know when to slow down. It all comes down to this: trust me and love me, with everything that you have. In return your life will be full and I will bless you abundantly.

Love, God